7/1/2020
Dear Diary,
In desperation I fled on bike from my family. My middle kid has been, and will continue to be, the test of my ability to not totally lose my shit. He is nine, but has the impulse control of a four year old and the moodiness of a teenager. He acts like he has Tourettes, constantly says awful things to his four year old sister, and acts out violently when he doesn’t get his way.
We took him to a counselor, but she was a tired old pushover who bribed him with candy while taking our money. At the end she acknowledged he has impulse control issues. No shit, lady.
My wife, instead of backing me up, has pretty much given up and let’s him get away with all kinds of shit. Since I’m not working I am around more and I don’t put up with the same level of shit, but since there don’t seem to be any consequences that work, I just get mad and raise my voice, and my wife then gets mad at ME and my TONE and it’s MY FUCKING PROBLEM.
So I fucking left.
I acknowledge I have anger issues and could benefit from talking to a counselor, but that would be in a world where we have a medical system that actually wants to help you. We don’t live in a world like that.
In our world the medical system wants to sell you pharmaceutical drugs and assess your risk potential and give you well-check visits by cops if someone reports you might be a danger to yourself or others, then hold you against your will for 72 hours. I worked at a homeless shelter for seven years, so know a thing or two about this. I even testified in court to help get someone committed.
With this whole pandemic ratcheting up the fear and anxiety, people will be popping like bubble gum. We will provide the evidence for our own removal from society.
7/2/2020
Dear Diary,
Today the FBI arrested Ghislaine Maxwell in New Hampshire. I bet the Q-Anon crowd is going nuts. I’m glad this monster is being arrested, but I don’t believe anything will come of it. Lots of people chuckled at all the EPSTEIN DIDN’T KILL HIMSELF memes, but I think those memes covered what really happened, which is that Epstein isn’t dead. There was a picture from a drone checking out his island after the supposed corpse was wheeled out, and the drone caught an image of someone that looked very much like Epstein.
After laying low for nearly a year, is Ghislaine going to meet up with him? Who the hell knows, and ultimately it doesn’t matter. There are bigger fish that need frying than this procurer of girls to rape and molest.
7/4/2020
Dear Diary,
If you are only allowed one person’s perspective to consult on what the arrest of Ghislaine Maxwell means, that person should be Whitney Webb. She understands the importance of names that DON’T come up, names that are left out of official reports. For Jasun Horsley it’s the Fabian Society. For Webb it’s the Mega Group and the country that cannot be named.
That country’s role in expanding and perfecting the global, digital panopticon that will be used to deliver the new normal of medical martial law is a very important part of the technocratic dystopia they are planning for us, their cattle.
Webb reminds her audience of all the tech investments Epstein was helping facilitate, like Carbine911, a company connected to the vampiric sociopath Peter Thiel. After writing that last sentence I had to pause so I could go post this at the Moon blog:
Whitney Webb interviewed by Ryan Christian discussing the arrest of Ghislaine Maxwell, best analysis you will find, IMHO.
Webb has done phenomenal work connecting all kinds of interesting dots. I mean, they're laughing at you with names like Carbyne911, don't ya know.
Webb reminded me Peter Thiel is connected to that one, dude who named his other surveillance product after a seeing eye stone in Lord of the Rings (Palantir).
Lord of the Rings, directed by Peter Jackson, same Peter Jackson who used LOTS of his own money and influence to create a deceptive narrative of wrong doing against Damien Echols, one of three young people accused of murdering two boys, crimes they DID commit.
Damien Echols, proud member of the OTO, which of course connects to Aleister Crowley.
Did I mention Jasun Horsley's book, The Vice of Kings, has a subtitle? it's How Socialism, Occultism, and the Sexual Revolution Engineered a Culture of Abuse.
...continuing here, Dear Diary, I will say Horsely has made a compelling case, using Crowley’s own words and some direct accusations from former collaborators, that he did indeed commit some atrocious acts of violence and depravity against others, including children.
The main reason Horsley is so convincing is because he comes from a place of understanding, not condemnation. The entire book is a detailed map that places Horsley, himself, and his entire family directly in the historical flow of unspeakable trauma that destroyed his family and is presently trying to undo the spiritual bonds of mankind.
Have we all been reenacting an old trauma? An ancient derangement that keeps rippling out until the energy builds into a tidal wave, drowning out the abominations we create when we act as clumsy, arrogant demi-gods trying to outsmart death?
Going back to Whitney Webb, her work at Mintpress looking at the ties between Christianity and Zionism reminded me that there is a virulent strain of theological madness that aims to quicken the pace to the END TIMES. Webb writes:
As was explored in previous installments of this series, these Christian Zionists, much like religious Zionist extremists in Israel, believe that the Al Aqsa mosque and the Dome of the Rock must be replaced with a Third Jewish Temple in order to usher in the end times.
These two groups of different faiths, since the 19th century, have repeatedly formed an opportunistic alliance in order to ensure the fulfillment of their respective prophecies, despite the fact that members of the other faith are rarely if ever on the same page in their interpretations of what occurs after the temple’s construction.
This alliance, based on a mutual obsession with hastening the coming of the Apocalypse, continues to this day and now, more than at any other time in history, these groups have reached the heights of power in both Israel and the United States. Parts I and II of this exclusive series explored how this branch of religious Zionism has come to dominate the current right-wing government of Israel and has led Israel’s current government to take definitive steps towards the destruction of the Al Aqsa mosque and the imminent construction of a Third Temple.
From the first installment, Webb writes:
In recent years, a centuries-old effort by what was once a small group of extremists has gone increasingly mainstream in Israel, with prominent politicians, religious figures and political parties advocating for the destruction of the Dome of the Rock and Al-Aqsa mosque in order to fulfill a specific interpretation of an end-times prophecy that was once considered fringe among practitioners of Judaism.
As Miko Peled, Israeli author and human-rights activist, told MintPress, the movement to destroy Al-Aqsa and replace it with a reimagined Temple “became notable after the 1967 war,” and has since grown into “a massive colonial project that uses religious, biblical mythology and symbols to justify its actions” — a project now garnering support from both religious and secular Israelis.
While the push to destroy Al-Aqsa and replace it with a physical Third Temple has gained traction in Israel in recent years, this effort has advanced at a remarkably fast pace in just the past few weeks, owing to a confluence of factors. These factors, as this report will show, include the upcoming revelation of the so-called “Deal of the Century,” the push for a war with Iran and Lebanon’s Hezbollah, and the Trump administration’s dramatic lenience in regards to the activity of Jewish extremist groups and extremist settlements in Israel.
The date of this article is June 24th, 2019, so last summer. A year later our world is upended by the Ft. Dietrich flu, a controlled demolition of the global economy is ongoing, medical martial law is being pieced together, contact tracing personnel are literally being trained as I write this, and the Covid-19 app is ready to go on my new iPhone.
The exercise has gone live.
The juxtaposition to what’s coming and my current view out my window couldn’t be starker. It’s a beautiful 4th of July weekend and the moon is full and friends are coming over to socialize. We will not be wearing masks and we will be sharing food, hopefully a few laughs, and remember what it is to be human.
Because there is a cold, non-human force out there, as clever as it is hateful of what it cannot possess, and its bringing a full-court press to LARP an anti-Christ sparked apocalypse.
7/5/2020
Dear Diary,
I am nearing the end of Horsley’s The Vice of Kings. Here is a paragraph I found compelling:
One major factor in the maintenance of the illusion of the world as a more or less civilized or benign space (the belief that the kinds of things reported in this book simply do not happen) is our unconscious assumption that the people in positions of authority are reliable narrators who can be trusted to provide an accurate account of reality. We implicitly, unthinkingly, trust those who have assumed power in our society, just, just as we tend to distrust those without power—the poor, the old, the sick, the homeless, the drug-addicted, the mentally unstable. To a large extent, social authority is the authority to determine what is true or false, to dominate the narrative. Yet, somewhat paradoxically, those who are able to define what is true—truthfully or not—are for this very reason able to attain power in society. The lawmakers are also the spell-casters.
7/6/2020
Dear Diary,
The idea of the “double-bind” keeps popping up everywhere I look. This morning a podcast I was listening to reminded me that anthropologist Gregory Bateson, along with his wife, Margaret Mead, helped develop the double-bind theory. I hate wikipedia, but it’s good for general, non-controversial definitions:
A double bind is a dilemma in communication in which an individual (or group) receives two or more conflicting messages, with one negating the other. In some circumstances (particularly families and relationships) this might be emotionally distressing. This creates a situation in which a successful response to one message results in a failed response to the other (and vice versa), so that the person will automatically be wrong regardless of response. The double bind occurs when the person cannot confront the inherent dilemma, and therefore can neither resolve it nor opt out of the situation.
Double bind theory was first described by Gregory Bateson and his colleagues in the 1950s
These are the types of tools sociopaths love to use as they wage mind war against targeted individuals. Combine double-binds with gaslighting and gang-stalking and it’s no wonder people choose suicide or snap in other ways.
There are some people who are trying to raise awareness that these tools exist and are being used. Maybe these people are legitimate, or maybe they are part of an effort to LARP the ideas of these weapons into existence (without them actually existing) in order to spread fear and passivity as their technocratic rollout continues.
Either way, it’s mind war. Speaking of Mind War, Michael Aquino supposedly passed recently, but details are suspiciously scarce. Hmmm.
Scrolling through the madness gets more and more surreal. Kanye declares in a tweet he’s running for president (didn’t file the paperwork), Elon Musk declares humans must merge with machines or become irrelevant.
Does it all come back to our mortal fear of death? Fear of death, for the breakaway sociopaths, is both a tool to keep their cattle manageable, and a deeply offensive constraint on their intelligence and evolutionary advantage over those of us who accept we will die and find satisfaction that little works of creation, whatever they may be, might be somehow be experienced by others after we go.
Richard Steven Hack at the Moon blog, a self-avowed Transhumanist, sees death as the ultimate evil. I told him that hanging out with Elon Musk and Peter Thiel for eternity sounded like hell.
Star Wars really does provide the perfect analogy.
People my age (Gen X) saw the middle trilogy first, so Obi Wan’s death was tempered by his ghostly reappearance guiding Luke on his journey.
The first three movies, which came out AFTER the middle three, feature the fall of Anakin Skywalker, and that fall is a direct result of his fear of death; his fear his partner and unborn child will die. To vanquish that fear he gives in to the dark side for the technology (later used by the Emperor) to beat death.
7/7/2020
Dear Diary,
I listened to a fascinating podcast yesterday from Higherside Chat with guest Ras Ben about America’s first plandemic, the Yellow Fever.
While I’m sure plenty would scoff reading the above sentence, I’d counter by saying listen to podcast and then we can talk.
Ras Ben, who apparently lives mystically in the heart of Philadelphia, claims to have had the ancestors whisper to him while he was out walking one day to look into the origins of the Yellow fever outbreak. The history he unlocks really does have fascinating and disturbing parallels to how today’s pandemic is being handled.
One of the sociopath figures to emerge in Ben’s research is Steve Girard (a crazy synch, when I worked at the shelter there was a Steve Girard who came by for day services, and to look for young women who needed “help”. We eventually banned him because of credible reports he was grooming women for sex). Here is a brief timeline of Girard’s early history compiled by Ras Ben:
1750 Stephen Girard was born May 20, in Bordeaux, France to an affluent Jewish family, several men of whom including his father held significant titles and duties throughout the overthrow of the Frank Kingdom and the establishment of the French Republic.
1770s Girard is a Privateer operating in the Caribbean and Atlantic under French flags. Primarily sailed between New Orleans and Haiti transporting enslaved Indigenous, sugar, and rum back and forth. Sometimes his runs circuited through New York Harbor as well.
1776 Arrives in Philadelphia, same year as War of Independence begins. A critical look at History would make one think this was beyond coincidence and that more than likely Girard was an agent-provocateur operating for the House of Lorraine within the Kingdom of France. It was the House of Lorraine who sponsored the American Revolution through negotiations with Ben Franklin. The strongest evidence pointing to this is the status and position the Girard family as a whole held throughout the overthrow of the Frank Kingdom and the establishment of the French Republic.
1776 Girard met and married Mary Lum, the daughter of John Lum a shipbuilder with whom Girard was conducting business. The courtship was not long and interestingly, Lum died three months before the marriage.
1781 To finance the War of Independence, The Bank of North America is established as a private national bank which served as the United States’ first de facto central bank. Superintendent of Finance Robert Morris and Revolutionary era financial planner Alexander Hamilton backed its establishment. The original charter as outlined by Hamilton called for the disbursement of 1,000 shares priced at $400 each. William Bingham, rumored to be the richest man in America after the Revolutionary War, purchased 9.5% of the available shares. The greatest share, however, 63.3%, was purchased on behalf of the United States government by Robert Morris using a loan from financiers associated with the House of Lorraine in France.
1783 U.S. gains independence from Great Britain in the Treaty of Paris. Both the emerging Federal Government and the 13 original states are heavily indebted to French financiers who sponsored the Sons of Liberty and Founding Fathers.
1784 Because the Bank of North America was a de facto central bank, a privately owned bank that owned the entire national debt, there was political opposition. Several Founding Fathers including Thomas Jefferson and James Madison argued such an institution jeopardized national sovereignty. Moreover, it soon became apparent the original financial structure was not going to be able to pay off war debt as well as fund a growing nation. The nation’s debt and financial sovereignty remained a contentious issue through the rest of the decade.
1784 Stephen Girard initiates one of the earliest direct contacts between the United States and China by sending ships to Canton Delta. Establishes a trade for pelts from mainland America and silver bullion from pirating the Caribbean for Asian opium and tea. Possible slave running was involved with this trade as well.
1789 French Revolution begins May 5th. The House of Lorraine sponsors the overthrow of the Kingdom of France and the House of Bourbon; whose Kings wore the crown. US lends support to revolutionaries through the Society of the Cincinnati.
1790 Girard committed his wife to the Pennsylvania Hospital (today part of the University of Pennsylvania) as an incurable lunatic. She was under the care of Dr. Benjamin Rush. Girard becomes custodian of the Lum estate and the wealth afforded by his shipbuilding business. Girard immediately moves in mistresses to his estate.
1791 First Bank of the United States, was a national bank, chartered for a term of twenty years, by the United States Congress on February 25. Again sponsored by Hamilton, the plan was to:
Have the Federal Government assume the Revolutionary War debts of the states
Pay off the war debts
Raise money for the new government
Establish a national bank and create a common currency
The Bank’s branches were all located in the fledgling nation’s port cities, primarily Philadelphia, New York, Charleston South Carolina and New Orleans. The First Bank of the United States positioned itself in port cities to facilitate collecting import/export taxes (customs duties).
1791 A Haitian “revolution” sponsored by the House of Lorraine to mirror what was happening in France is initiated on August 21st. Girard profits off the initial uprising in Haiti, when the enslaved at Le Cap rose up, massacred land owners, and set fire to the plantations. Girard was supposed to rescue the French landowners, instead he explained to them that he can’t transport their wealth and themselves at the same time. He convinces them to let him take their valuables and he’ll return for them. He never did. Jean-Jacques Dessalines killed most of them and Girard used the estimated $50,000 worth of valuables — equivalent to many millions today — to build a fleet of ships for his China-Americas trade routes.
1793 Louis XVI is condemned to death, beheaded and the monarchy abolished, making France the French First Republic on January 17th. The Girard family in France are integral actors in establishment of the Republic.
1793 The French Republic also declares war on the remaining Kingdoms in Europe, including the Kingdom of Great Britain. February 25th.
1793 The Reign of Terror sweeps through France starting in March. Tens of thousands of opponents of the Revolution are executed along with common criminals.
1793 George Washington takes an “America First” policy. Even though a huge debt was owed to the newly formed French Republic, and even though Great Britain was a colonial oppressor, Washington wanted the U.S. to remain neutral in the wars breaking out within Europe. Great Britain was still a major trade partner who also was still allied with several Indian nations. Washington felt the new nation was too vulnerable to engage the Brits so soon after gaining independence. Moreover, Washington considered the alliance Treaty with France to be for defensive, not offensive battles. The official Proclamation of Neutrality was issued April 22nd.
1793 In June, The Reign of Terror is mirrored in Haiti and one’s who were loyal to the Bourbon Kings were massacred. This caused an exodus of at least 10,000 refugees fleeing the destruction. Most arrive in the United States in two ports. New Orleans and Philadelphia.
1793 The Citizen Genet Affair: Edmond Charles Genêt served as French minister to the United States from 1793 to 1794. The French assigned Genêt a serious mission:
-To obtain advance payments on debts the U.S. owed the French Republic:
-To negotiate a commercial treaty between the United States and France allowing merchants sailing under French flags safe harbor yet denying the same to British merchant fleets;
-To enforce portions of the 1778 Franco-American treaty, which allowed attacks on British merchant ships entering or leaving U.S. ports.
On April 8, Genet arrived in Charleston, South Carolina. Not honoring political protocol, he did not meet with the Heads of State before recruiting privateers and acquiring 4 ships harbored in South Carolina to raid British shipping off the American coast. These acts violated Washington’s Proclamation of Neutrality and angered Washington.
Genet arrived in Philadelphia on May 18. Before meeting with Washington, Genet and first met with Pro-French Republic Secretary of State Thomas Jefferson. Although Jefferson supported Genet’s efforts and disagreed with Washington’s neutrality policy, he too was angered with Genet’s violation of U.S. law.
After Jefferson met with Genet he held counsel with Washington, who reaffirmed American neutrality. Washington demanded Genet not secure any more privateers, cancel his plans to commandeer British ships, and return any privateered British goods. Genet insisted that privateering and selling the goods in American ports was within his rights by the 1778 Treaty of Amity and Commerce. Between the U.S. and French Republic.
While that is the skeleton of Girard’s influence, Ras Ben on the podcast fleshes it out and ties it to today (Steve Girard is like Bill Gates, for example). Part of his capacity to do this, he claims, is his physical location in Philadelphia, a place, Ben feels, where the veil that perpetuates the illusion of linear time has been weakened—Montauk and Manhattan Project and all that.
To further the synchronicities I started watching the second season of Dark. For a description of the show I’ll rely on widipedia:
Dark is a German science fiction thriller web television series co-created by Baran bo Odar and Jantje Friese. Set in the fictitious south German town of Winden (not to be confused with the real town of Winden im Elztal). Dark concerns the aftermath of a child's disappearance, which exposes the secrets of, and hidden connections among four estranged families as they slowly unravel a sinister time travel conspiracy which spans several generations. Throughout the series, Dark explores the existential implications of time and its effects upon human nature.
I should throw out the theory that Donald Trump is a time traveler based on the fact his Uncle was apparently the scientist the US government picked to go through Tesla’s papers when he died penniless. Trump’s Uncle found Tesla’s plan for a time machine, the theory goes. Further proof offered to bolster this theory: Back to the Future II.
That’s enough for today.
7/8/2020
Dear Diary,
I was at a real low point this morning. I decided on July 4th that my wine guzzling needed to stop. While my alcohol dependency didn’t result in any dramatic destructive capacity, my wife was getting tired of finding me passed out on the toilet, and passed out in the shop, and then the next day being more short-tempered than I usually am.
I paired my marital strife with my growing awareness of how deeply the spiritual war is being waged against our souls, and how I was giving up ground unnecessarily by inebriating myself every night.
I really wanted a glass of wine last night, so I told my wife I was going to pour myself one glass. Her non-verbal reaction indicated her displeasure, so I threw a little tantrum and stormed off to watch an episode of Dark (which is fucking me up).
The next day, after my wife made a snide comment that ensured no real conversation would happen, I woke up already agitated. When my wife got up she reminded me I had agreed to take our neurotic New Foundland to the groomers. Because this dog is the most neurotic canine to ever exist, I was supposed to follow a carefully crafted sequence to get her groomed.
I didn’t follow the sequence and everything quickly went to shit. I was able to get the 120 pound body of the dog out of the van through extreme effort, but the groomer was no where to be seen. They were supposed to open at 8am, but by 8:05 it was clear the groomer had some other dog. I called my wife in a huffing and puffing rage, explaining how I had apparently terrorized our dog for nothing.
I took the dog home, she wouldn’t get out of the van, so I cussed her out and got into our other vehicle and left.
I was going to stop at my art studio, but for some reason just kept driving. As I was driving I got a call from the sister of the man who had been killed at the homeless shelter. She had just talked to her other brother and felt the need to call me immediately. I told her what I had been going through the last few days. She said she knew the MOST HIGH had intended for her to call me RIGHT NOW, and you better believe I validated how accurate that inclination had been.
Jejchelle and I talked for well over an hour. The connections that resulted from this conversation are too numerous to list.
One that stood out was my mention of the Odd Fellows society, and how they are involved in the treatment of bodies, like morgues and funeral homes. I explained the context of the Yellow Fever and the podcast I had listened to that mentioned the Odd Fellows and the role of “depletion theory” which, at the time, justified blood letting and other horrible practices. Jejchelle’s sister, Angela, came into the conversation a bit later and said she had gotten to know an old woman who is up there in the Eagles society, and to catch up on back rent Angela was helping this woman organize files and paperwork where she came across the name Odd Fellows.
This related to the death of their brother, Sean, because for awhile they didn’t even know where his body was. Jejchelle also reminded me how her grandfather was a head administrator of a major hospital, in Pittsburgh I think.
The synchronicities feel like they are accelerating. I suspect if I avoid my pattern of box wine coping, more will be revealed. And I further suspect the dreams will return.
7/9/2020
Dear Diary,
Sometimes an example of human awfulness is so head-shakingly stark it must be documented for posterity.
Three white southern musicians have a band named Lady Antebellum. After George Floyd was publicly executed, white people rushed to make symbolic adjustments to protect themselves from cancel culture. It was in this spirit Lady Antebellum loudly proclaimed they were changing their name to Lady A.
But there was a problem.
A female blues singer in Seattle already had the name Lady A, and didn’t want to give it up to three, virtue-signaling white people. So what did these white people do? They sued the black woman for the name.
You can’t make this shit up.
7/10/2020
The greatest power the human being can exert over others is to get control of their perceptions of reality.
-Philip K. Dick, Martian Time-Slip
Dear Diary,
I am coming back around again to Philip K. Dick through the lens of Jasun Horsley and my evolved understanding of the potential weaponized technology the sociopath elite are deploying against our brains and our souls.
The questions PKD grappled with—what is reality, what does it mean to human, what is time—have taken on a new urgency in light of this scripted end-times power play the sociopaths are engaging in.
There is some weird interplay with male writers who kill (unconsciously) the feminine to achieve some degree of enlightenment—or, at the very least, enlightened confusion—that I need to note it here.
Philip K. Dick, for example, never got over his twin sister’s death when they were infants. I’ll let wikipedia give the summary:
Philip Kindred Dick and his twin sister, Jane Charlotte Dick, were born six weeks prematurely on December 16, 1928, in Chicago, Illinois, to Dorothy (née Kindred; 1900–1978) and Joseph Edgar Dick (1899–1985), who worked for the United States Department of Agriculture. His paternal grandparents were Irish. The death of Philip's twin, Jane, six weeks after their birth, on January 26, 1929, profoundly affected Philip's life, leading to the recurrent motif of the "phantom twin" in his books.
William Burroughs took on a more active role in killing the feminine when he played a dangerous game of (ironically) “William tell”. The result left his second wife, Joan Vollmer, dead. Again, wikipedia:
Joan Vollmer (February 4, 1923 – September 6, 1951)[2] was the most prominent female member of the early Beat Generation circle. While a student at Barnard College, she became the roommate of Edie Parker (later married to Jack Kerouac). Their apartment became a gathering place for the Beats during the 1940s, where Vollmer was often at the center of marathon, all night discussions. In 1946, she began a relationship with William S. Burroughs, later becoming his common-law wife. In 1951, Burroughs killed Vollmer in what he first admitted to and shortly thereafter denied as a drunken attempt at playing William Tell.
There are interesting parallels here to my own life. My partner was born on February 14th and her mother’s name is Joan. Burroughs killed Joan (murdered?) September 6th. I was born in September, a proud Virgo.
I experienced the death of the feminine at the age of 19 (I was born on the 19th) when my good friend, Lisa, was hit by a drunk driver while she was crossing the street. We were both college students at the University of Kansas. I got the call that Lisa had been killed on the morning of April 1st, April Fools Day. I have had a vendetta of sorts against April ever since, learning to see (like T.S. Eliot) why April is the cruelest month.
The University of Kansas is located in Lawrence. Guess who else called Lawrence home until his death on August 2nd, 1997? William Burroughs. And when did I start classes? The following month, in September.
William Skink knows all this, which is why the spark of his soul is being sequestered and put toward dark aims.
World creation is a way artists take an overwhelming immensity too numerous to know, shrink it down, then examine it. Words are one medium for doing this. Plastic toy bricks can be another.
The 50’s style Lego Diner should be arriving today or tomorrow. The kids and I are very excited. It will be a great addition to the grand plastic metaphor I’ve built in the shop.
All the major themes I’m entangled in are encoded in the plastic bricks.
7/11/2020
Dear Diary,
A comment at the Moon blog got me thinking hard about the standard way of understanding the term “culture war”, and the epiphany I had in terms of how the sociopath transhumanists are waging a different kind of culture war, and why.
The normal usage of “culture war” denotes layers of generational conflict stoked by elites as another iteration of the age-old divide/conquer technique for population control purposes.
The culture war they are waging is different.
The comment (which I can’t presently locate) observed an increase in the infection/death rates among cultures that interact in closer proximity to each other, like latino cultures. Other cultures that put more personal space between themselves, and are more capable of collective actions, like the Japanese, have not been as negatively impacted by the virus.
This comment took me back to a college class I took several times during my time at the University of Montana. It was a cultural understanding class intended to help foreign exchange students acclimate to their environment, and also to help ALL the students taking the class to develop cultural sensitivity toward how cultural differences manifest.
One of the exercises the professor, Mary Groom Hall, would have us do is stand opposite another student from a different culture and each of us would take a step closer to each other until one or the other felt uncomfortable.
There were a lot of Japanese students in the class, and their sense of personal space was probably the “largest”, so to speak. The professor did the exercise with a tall, handsome Latin man who walked confidently up to her very, very closely. It was quite funny, and also illustrated her point perfectly.
That experience, and the blog comment, got me thinking. If this virus is somehow tailor-made, and it’s the beginning of a eugenics-inspired culling of the human herd in preparation of a mechanized, transhumanist future, then focusing viral transmission on close human contact would remove specific types of cultural manifestations, and the cultures that are already more socially isolated and collectively attuned (better material to merge with machines?), would be the ones more predisposed to survive.
This would also disproportionately impact people with spiritual beliefs who value congregating closely together with other humans who share their religious faith, giving an evolutionary edge to the sad, secular isolation of the humans trapped before the many screens of their quickly emerging technocratic panopticon.
7/12/2020
Dear Diary,
I am watching the components of Missoula’s transformation fall into place just as William Skink predicted.
How does a liberal college town become a militant outpost for the post-crisis dystopia that emerges on the doorstep of mankind’s oblivion?
Big Tech, through Cognizant, establishes a foothold and builds a strong relationship with the failing University (headed by West Point graduate and GE guy, Seth Bodnar). Big Pharma spins off a few brains to establish a Biotech start-up called Inimmune that claims to “leverage the immune system” with its cutting-edge science. Did I mention there is a BSL-4 lab in Hamilton? Yes, I think I did.
With tech being sold as mankind’s panacea (I’m looking at you, transhumanists), the venture capitalists swoop in, like Mike Goguen, who fled California amidst scandal to set up shop in Whitefish.
Through fear a virulent form of technocratic fascism will be embraced by liberal-minded people because they have been inoculated against critical thinking with a carefully designed mind virus locking their mental faculties into unthinking obedience to their political party dictates.
The trajectory has firmly been set. Who, if anyone, will deviate?
7/13/2020
Dear Diary,
How have I just now come across Alex Constatine, especially with interesting little tidbits like this:
The Nazis were created by the world oligarchy for war and wore Gnostic vestments. German terrorist units had names like “The Death’s Head” and were known to commit ritualistic murder. “The roots of the Nazi Party were buried in hidden places,” declared Hitler’s friend Hermann Rauschning. The German military is not to be confused with the Nazi covert operators; the former fought on the battlefield, the other undercover.
Indeed.
7/14/2020
Dear Diary,
Composing tweets on the old Twitter platform is a great way of performing one’s impotence. For example, I tweeted this into the Twitter ether just a few minutes ago:
Sorry kids, we could have stopped their tyrannical dystopia and viral eugenics program, but we were too busy tweeting about cake and bears spinning nunchucks.
This tweet says I AM NOT OF YOUR HERD, I AM A CLEVER SKEPTIC CRITICIZING HOW YOU EXPEND ENERGY ON USELESS ACTIONS THE ENSURE YOUR EVENTUAL ENSLAVEMENT!
The sad thing is, how is what I’m doing any different?
7/15/2020
Dear Diary,
Since Philip K. Dick came up via Jasun Horsley I figured I should go to Dick’s Exegesis and consult what he wrote the month/year of my birth: September/1978:
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From Folder 2
[2:1] So Thomas is not a former me or a multiple personality. The single sentence last night (“there’s someone else inside my head and he’s not living in this century”) nails it down.
(1) “Someone else.” Thomas is not me.
(2) “Inside my head.” It’s a human being (not the Holy Spirit).
(3) “He’s not living in this century.” This opens the door to that which is beyond conception. Operating out of my head he is locked into the world of “Acts.” Here ends 4 years and 6 months of analysis and research. Time is unmasked as irreal; 1,900 years are disclosed as aspect of one underlying matrix; Tears and its “Acts” material is explained; my 27 years of writing the same themes over and over again fits into place; 2-74 and 3-74 is comprehensible, as is the overthrow of Nixon; the transtemporal constants have been explicated. When I got onto the “volvox” model and the push-pull system I was pretty close: the slowly revolving matrix structure, sphere, and the way it enhances what we project. The negentropic total system with its stations and connecting links, forming a vast brain—what a grand vision—how beautiful. The brain cannibalizing its earlier law-bound self to achieve total homeostasis and wakefulness for all its parts, so that all is brain, not sub-brain, interface for mind, all lives, all knows, all participates.
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That’s some heavy shit alright, and strangely echoes William Skink’s descent. PKD had Thomas rattling around; William has Jim.
I few pages later, still ascribed to the time period of September/1974, this:
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[3:38] Re the Bowie film, and the little boy on the raft floating toward England; the divine child won’t be born, but rather smuggled in, like a cuckoo’s egg in a host nest, disguised as a—human? Terrestrial? Evading “Scotland Yard”—i.e., the authorities. Extraterrestrial? No. It has to do with time, and he can mix his world in and out with ours, like with a mixing board. Space and time both. But he is an invader—but God knows from where or when—but another planet. The future? And/or an alternate world?
I have a strong feeling that the savior of us all is about to be smuggled into our midst unnoticed, to mingle with us as an ordinary human, which he is not. But where or when he comes from I do not know. […]
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PKD goes on to talk about the return of Gods wisdom—St. Sophia—and the destruction of counterfeit time and the Black Iron Prison.
Chills.
7/16/2020
Dear Diary,
I continue haunting big box stores for Lego sets to build my grand Lego metaphor, so I am familiar with how these retail spaces are changing and adapting to things like social distancing.
Yesterday Walmart had a huge, gaping hole where rows of shelving once stood. Are they going to widen aisles? Are product shortages occurring from supply chains breaking down? I don’t know.
At one of the aggregating sites I visit, I came across this apt analogy:
Though under pressure from climate change, the dinosaurs were still dominant 65 million year ago--until the meteor struck, creating a global "nuclear winter" that darkened the atmosphere for months, killing off most of the food chain that the dinosaurs depended on.
The ancestors of modern birds were one of the few dinosaur species to survive the extinction event, which took months to play out.
It wasn't the impact and shock wave that killed off dinosaurs globally--it was the "nuclear winter" that doomed them to extinction. As plants withered, the plant-eating dinosaurs expired, depriving the predator dinosaurs of their food supply.
This is a precise analogy for the global economy, which is entering a financial "nuclear winter" extinction event. As I've been discussing for the past few months, costs are sticky but revenues and profits are on a slippery slope.
Businesses still have all the high fixed costs of 2019 but their revenues are sliding as the "nuclear winter" weakens consumer spending, investment in new capacity, etc.
Despite all the hoopla about a potential vaccine, no vaccine can change four realities: one, consumer sentiment has shifted from confidence to caution and from spending freely to saving. This is the financial equivalent of "nuclear winter": there is no way to return to the pre-impact environment.
Two, uncertainty cannot be dissipated, either. There are no guarantees a vaccine will be 99% effective, that it will last more than a few months, that it won't have side-effects, etc. There are also no guarantees that consumers will resume their care-free spending ways as credit tightens, incomes decline, risks emerge and the need for savings becomes more compelling.
Three, consumer behavior and uncertainty have already changed, and so businesses that cannot survive on much lower revenues won't last long enough to emerge from the "nuclear winter" of uncertainty and a shift in sentiment.
Four, assets based on 2019 revenues, profits and demand are now horrendously overvalued, and the repricing of all assets will bring down the predators, i.e. the banks.
It’s almost encouraging to think that maybe the predator class, embodied by the central banking system—topped by the BIS (Bank for International Settlements) with its anointed Black Rock financial behemoth selected to carry out the Great Reset—could die off from lack of consumer sustenance, but considering we, the people, ARE LOWER ON THE FOOD CHAIN, I guess the question becomes this: how do we become the scrappy birds who survived the extinction event?
There is no surviving it, according to William Skink. Striving to survive beyond the restrictive natural boundaries of existence is more akin to the transhumanist obsession with immortality than it is with a balanced human perspective of body attuned to spirit.
That said, I believe a financial nuclear winter is imminent, which is hard to imagine right now amidst picture-perfect summer days of backyard sprinklers and trips to the river.
I am doing my best to enjoy this time with the family, while converting our soon-to-be worthless paper currency into various metals and plastic bricks.
7/17/2020
Dear Diary,
I again went to PKD’s Exegesis. From page 490 (early 1979):
[10:87A] Our reality is under the power of a madman. He may or may not have created it, but it makes no difference: he is using it, like a shooting gallery game at an amusement park and Smithsonian Institution combined—like a science fair. For many races of creatures from different star systems—an exhibit of technology. So this is not merely a game. It’s a—the maze, created by the dialectic, is the exhibit; our race is only an element vis-a-vis the maze. The fact that the dialectic continues forever is a scientific marvel.
Chris is like a runner, ready to sprint in and replace a beleaguered creature within the maze.
She stands and advises. (Us.) (In the maze.)
At the controls of the maze is Mr. Looney Tunes—they two offset him, to keep the sport not too cruel. She is justice; Christ is mercy. The controls of the maze are in the hands of a Lon Chaney-like creature from a world where they look that way. The girl is secretly the builder of the maze; she now poses just a s guide to us, but also: she turns again and again to Mr. Looney Tunes to speak on our behalf that he spare us pain. She is totally rational. If nutso at the controls doesn’t surrender them soon, she and Christ will physically push him away from the controls.
There is a whole huge map room of computer info, input and output from the worlds in the maze, continual traffic.
“He is an old child, playing at draughts, moving acording to the rules.” Senile.
7/19/2020
Dear Diary,
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7/21/2020
Dear Diary,
I’ve been waking up quite early since abstaining from box wine guzzling, usually around 4am.
Since we’re out of data for the month, we have a very slow internet connection, so the early mornings have allowed me to finish watching Dark, a total mind fuck about time travel, carrying on the notion introduced to me by the film Donnie Darko that other worlds created through manipulating time are ultimately unstable worlds that require apocalypse, or, in the case of Dark, get stuck in an infinite, repeating loop of apocalypses that can’t be stopped until the “glitch in the matrix” is rectified.
Donnie Darko saves the primary world by going back through time and letting himself be killed by the plane engine, thus closing the time loop that created the tangent universe in the first place. The impetus for Donnie to take this drastic step is finding love, Gretchen, then losing that love in a fatal car crash. Donnie knows in the primary world she will still be alive.
In Dark, the love-bound couple who become Adam and Eva (Jonas and Martha) finally come to realize that their two worlds and their very existence are the result of a grief-stricken scientist in a third, primary world, who lost his son, daughter-in-law and granddaughter in a fatal car crash.
Due to this tragedy and unspeakable grief, the scientist spends the rest of his life trying to figure out a way to cheat death, and in doing so he transgresses a temporal boundary (put in place by God?) and the result is significantly more human suffering in the German town of Winden.
To save the primary world from being split into an unnatural quantum entanglement, Jonas and Martha must, together, use the time-traveling technology to preempt the tragedy, so that the ability to manipulate time is not discovered in the first place.
This fictional narrative overlaps with the non-fiction book I’m consuming, Jasun Horsley’s Prisoner of Infinity. Horsley is grappling with the same big ideas I am with his deep dive examination of Whitley Strieber’s supposed alien contact experiences, the possible technology of child abuse, and the unnatural Transhumanist drive to cheat death and prime a new cosmic-based, outward looking religion.
All of this narrative complexity emerges from a core refusal to accept the limitation of life, which is death.
Reading Prisoner of Infinity I am beyond impressed with how Horsley blows open his personal microcosm for macro analysis. Where is father? Absent. Sometimes its a physical absence, sometimes it’s an emotional one.
The last episode of Dark reveals the origin, and it’s not just a scientist’s attempt to turn back time and cheat death.
Before the fatal car accident the son is arguing with dad. Son is angry and says he now understands why mom left. You get the idea this scientist man never quite figured out the husband/father thing. This is confirmed later in the car as the son explains to his wife how his father could see how black holes worked, but could never seem to see his own son.
Having finished the series, I was still trying to process when the household began to stir. We were going to the lake today, but I wasn’t feeling it. We had made plans, though, which included my oldest’s friend.
When we got to my parents house, my mom hadn’t realized I was coming, so there wasn’t room. I would have to wait around for my dad to finish a business call, and go up a little later with him.
I recoiled.
A big thread in the knot of anger I hold is connected my father’s emotional absence. He threw himself into climbing the corporate ladder of success with the lock-tight rationale of needing to financially provide for his family. So what if he could never verbalize his love for his children? Doesn’t a trip to Hawaii suffice?
Horsley describes how trauma is reenacted; the series Dark describes how trauma is reenacted and then amplified when one deploys tools to avoid its effect.
Common tools up to this point have included drugs, sex, religion and work. But time travel?
Horsley’s opening chapter in PoI is titled Heaven Stormers. I went looking for a particular quote Horsley highlights by Jeffrey Kripal, who wrote an article about early childhood trauma, especially sexual, and its relation to “mystical states of realization”. The quote stood out to me because of how it places the Haldon collider in the context of violence and the mystical realization of the immaterial nature of our existence. The quote:
Nothing in our everyday experience gives us any reason to suppose that matter is not material, that it is made up of bizarre forms of energy that violate, very much like spirit, all of our normal notions of space, time and causality. Yet when we subject matter to certain dramatic treatments, like CERN’s Hadron Collider near Geneva, Switzerland, then we can see quite clearly that matter is not material at all. But—and this is key—we can only get there through a great deal of physical violence, a violence so extreme and so precise that it cost us billions of dollars and decades of preparation to inflict it. (Kripal, 2015, p.165).
The violence/mystical realization dynamic reminds me of the previously mentioned (by me) odd correlation (which is not causation) between writers like William Burroughs and Philip K. Dick and the literal death of the feminine. Burroughs shot his wife, supposedly playing William Tell. PKD’s twin sister died early, in infancy, something Dick never got over, as he felt responsible.
For me it was Lisa’s death our freshman year at college. She was hit by a drunk driver while crossing the street. It changed the trajectory of my life.
What appealed to me when I first started learning about Gnosticism was the concept that god was actually an imposter—an insane demi-urge that created this false world to imprison the image of the feminine, to defile it.
I can’t listen to Gary Jules singing his version of Mad World without seeing the characters in Donnie Darko (after Donnie makes his sacrifice) staring off, as if some part of them remembers the tangent universe that briefly existed, but had to be destroyed because it was wrong.
In Dark it’s Jonas’ mother who says what Donnie Darko only shows in montage—she tells the dinner gathering of a dream she had the previous night, like a world went dark, and why it was a relief.
It’s an eerie day today. I have an unsettling feeling. Please, get them home safely.
7/28/2020
Dear Diary,
They got home safely. That was an odd day. Seems like much more than a week ago.
We are deep in the doldrums of a summer pandemic Goundhog’s Day where every day is just like the one before it (if you are not familiar with the film Groundhog’s Day with Bill Murray you should watch it).
One change sure to come is wildfires and our skies filling with haze. If the smoke gets bad enough, like it has in years past, hazardous air could significantly limit the one thing keeping a modicum of normalcy in our lives: going to the river.
It feels like we’re being held in suspension. In a few days it will be August, the month school is supposed to start. There are three phases for reopening schools, but no one knows yet what phase we’ll be starting with.
I continue researching Project Safe Neighborhoods. The scope of this initiative is much bigger than I realized. It goes all the way back to the Bush regime’s AG at the time, John Ashcroft, and was only revived two years ago by Trump’s AG, Jeff Sessions.
Missoula County and Yellowstone County are the only two counties in Montana using the multi-jurisdictional coordination capacity of PSN to reduce violent crime by specifically targeting meth trafficking.
For the first two years of this crime-fighting revival, the Montana State Attorney as trumpeted its success by referencing declining numbers.
Is one way to make the numbers decline simply to declare murders as legitimate acts of self defense?
Until the County Attorney’s office can convince me the killer of Sean Stevenson was acting in self defense when he STRANGLED him to death, and that the killer of Ben Mousso was acting in self defense when he STABBED him to death, I am going to suspect something else is going on, and I’m going to keep digging to find out what.
7/30/2020
Dear Diary,
Man, Jasun Horsley continues blowing me away. I think this paragraphs encapsulates what I have been trying to wrap my head around for years:
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Transhumanists are busy dreaming up worlds and the necessary technology to create them, which they intend to inhabit, as consciousness. Ray Kurzweil’s dream of transcendence is to animate the whole universe with the power of his imagination. But the transhumanists may be overlooking something: Even as they are trying to get out of their bodies, out of this material world and into the realm of pure spirit and eternal life, something else may be trying to come in. The machine, like the rest of matter, may not be as uninhabited as they think.
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This excerpt takes me back to the idea of the black goo, the supposed holographic/liquid intelligence that fell from the stars and led sociopath-prone humans to create a matrix of quantum entanglement that dims our heart light while empowering the mind to THINK BIG with plans to alchemically process the human herd into a more manageable sub-species, while the chosen ones breakaway and evolve.
Yes, I know how that sounds.
But when I see people engaging in “the mask debate” I cannot help but see devolved primates flinging hand-fulls of shit at each other while shrieking and baring their teeth.